The end of control over my body

So I've got intestinal issues. Bad. Dunno if it's the OCP or the Panadeine I took over the weekend or perhaps what I've been eating. Whatever it is, it's bad. And ongoing for the last 4 days.

Reminds me of the horrible 4th IVF cycle where after pickup, I had the same issues. Bloated, painful tummy, complete blockage. It was so bad I made G promise me that I would never ever, ever have to do it again. But here I am, and not really having started the injections, I'm already feeling horrible.

All the pills I'm taking, DHEA for egg quality, OCP, vitamins, folate, and soon injections and more. I've really lost control of my body and if we're successful, the same applies for the entire 9 months!

Seriously, whose idea was this?!

So begins

And so begins our journey for Baby #2. I'm calling this blog Hormonal in Hornsby because that's where i'll be and that's how i'll feel. Though it's already started and i haven't yet made it to Hornsby.

I've been taking the oral contraceptive pill (OCP) for a month already. To help time everything and regulate hormones but not having taken any OCP for years, it's making me feel terribly ill and immensely irritable. Just started my 2nd round last night and this dose isn't feeling much better.

In 15 days i'll be on a plane with my 4 year old love of my life and without my 36 year old other love of my life who has to stay behind and bring home the bacon. I tell him that he couldn't have planned it better, getting to skip all the injections, hormonal fits and tests. All he'll be required to do is fly in for egg retrieval, make his "contribution", and have a lovely holiday for a week or two before leaving me again to endure the last week of the dreaded two week wait alone.

I think this will be a long ride...