In a word... That's what i am right now... Crazy!
People talk about Prenatal or Postnatal depression and if this is what it's like, it is absolutely miserable. I'm miserable. I spend so much time pacing and telling myself to keep it together, it's not even funny.
After being prescribed antidepressants to help me sleep, I took them for maybe 4 days and it was supposed to help me sleep along with some drug that is the equivalent to Ambien. But I've stopped the antidepressents because it was making my head foggy all day long. Thank God I slept all last night with only the Ambien.
This is horrible. My parents are worried, my husband is worried, even my sweet little child is worried. I've tried not to freak out in front of her. I've really tried but sometimes I just can't stop it.
Never understood depressed individuals until now. Now it's like.... Ooooooooh. This is aweful. Utterly and miserably aweful.
I've tried praying and that totally helps. The belief in a Higher Power for help and relief is a powerful thing. I'm convinced that's why I was able to sleep all last night. Still, there are the days now. And i can't be on my own. I just can't! I'm scared of what may happen. What's to come. What I may do. I'm terrified.
My dad says I need to accept that I can't control everything and I should start getting better but it will take some time. I don't know if i have time!
My mum says i need to snap out of it. But how. HOW. If i knew, i would!
Poor hubby watches me as I go through my crazies and crying when I can and looks so worried and I hate myself for putting all the people I love through this. I don't know what to do. I have no idea how to stop the madness and make myself better.
I'm miserable. Miserable! And totally crazy.
People talk about Prenatal or Postnatal depression and if this is what it's like, it is absolutely miserable. I'm miserable. I spend so much time pacing and telling myself to keep it together, it's not even funny.
After being prescribed antidepressants to help me sleep, I took them for maybe 4 days and it was supposed to help me sleep along with some drug that is the equivalent to Ambien. But I've stopped the antidepressents because it was making my head foggy all day long. Thank God I slept all last night with only the Ambien.
This is horrible. My parents are worried, my husband is worried, even my sweet little child is worried. I've tried not to freak out in front of her. I've really tried but sometimes I just can't stop it.
Never understood depressed individuals until now. Now it's like.... Ooooooooh. This is aweful. Utterly and miserably aweful.
I've tried praying and that totally helps. The belief in a Higher Power for help and relief is a powerful thing. I'm convinced that's why I was able to sleep all last night. Still, there are the days now. And i can't be on my own. I just can't! I'm scared of what may happen. What's to come. What I may do. I'm terrified.
My dad says I need to accept that I can't control everything and I should start getting better but it will take some time. I don't know if i have time!
My mum says i need to snap out of it. But how. HOW. If i knew, i would!
Poor hubby watches me as I go through my crazies and crying when I can and looks so worried and I hate myself for putting all the people I love through this. I don't know what to do. I have no idea how to stop the madness and make myself better.
I'm miserable. Miserable! And totally crazy.
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