Made it to my BT and first ultrasound (U/s). They no longer get us to help them write down the details like little school children, they're all tech savvy now and have photos and printed reports to send to the doc.
The U/s is internal and you've got to love the small talk between me and the stick holder. Conversations about the weather and time of day... But I suppose it's better than talk like "good morning, I noticed you have a stick stuck up my vagina... Could you move it to the left a bit, you're poking my bladder and I'm afraid I may fart."
There are 8 measureable follicles in my right ovary, the other side "did better" but didn't say how many there were. I should have asked!
The leading follicle was 12.7mm and I have a few other ones over 10mm. Endometrium lining is a bit over 7.
This seems like a better result than even Leela's cycle. There are more eggs this time and the biggest one is bigger by 2mm than Leela was on the first U/s. Perhaps my current lady of leisure lifestyle IS helping.
Was explaining all of this to my mother in law who got a bit teary and then wanted to hug me. Not helpful cause there is no point getting all emotional and hopeful at this stage (I am plenty emotional but from all the drugs).
There was a moment driving back where I felt hopeful or maybe it was more like "WTF, this might actually work! OMG, what would I do with another baby!!!!!"
But here's a reality check. Met a girl on the doorstep who had just got her period after her first cycle. Poor thing started to cry as she told me and I really felt for her. I have been there, done that. Now I'm just a hardened IVF pro who really just tries to stay stoic and get through it. Better curb my need to share if I don't want any more emotional outbursts from people cause that doesn't help. Will be worse if it doesn't work cause it's harder to bear other people's disappointment then my own. I HATE the "you poor thing" and "you must be so disappointed" comments. If it doesn't work, let's just get on with life and get over it.
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