I am bloody tired...

I'm tired, weary and i just want to sleep.

So tired am i that i have nothing pithy to say. So tired, i can't think of what to write that would make me laugh.

So God damned weary, tired, crabby, grumpy as can be.

Must be the drugs. G assures me i was like this for all my other cycles and just hearing that made me tired. I'm not even half way through and i'm over it! I keep counting days and imagining when egg collection will be. I pray it's not a long cycle and that it's also not too short that G doesn't make it here on time.

Staying here, there is constant cleaning, constant banter, constant sweet child of mine needing my love. Can't sit and do nothing without feeling guilty for not helping out more or doing more around the house. I told my hosts that it's better for me to just keep going so i don't sit and mope but in reality, i can't stop without feeling like a lazy ass so i keep going... but so tired, so tired, i feel like crying, not for any emotional reason but from sheer exhaustion.

Don't need to be told to take it easy, don't need anyone to lecture me on doing too much and i should put my feet up and not care about everything else. It won't happen. I just need to suck it up, stop being a wimp and just get on with it.

So off to sleep i go, i know tomorrow will be better... at least until 3 or 4 when i start to fade and wish i were in bed again.