Sitting at my Michael Bolton playing cafe sipping a great latte and waiting for my toasted cheese/tomato. MB is absent today but I thought it'd be a better idea doing this and chilling for a bit instead of going to the Kmart over the street that opened at 6am. Last time I went and did a bit of damage and since I'm under strict instructions on my spending there, i thought I'd sit and have a break. (though I can see the lights on through the glass of Chatswood Chase and I just don't know if I will be able to resist!)
These early mornings are turning into a blessing for me because it's the only time I am alone and have some time to myself. Leela is home with Gran and I'm not feeling terribly guilty leaving her there. I don't have to make conversation with anyone or clean something or play with anyone or do anything I don't normally do because my somebody feels it is time to do so. It's just me, my coffee, brekky and it is OK to sit and do nothing. Nothing at all! It's bliss for me. Been here only almost 2 weeks and while I am surrounded by beautiful, loving and well meaning people. It is just nice to do nothing. I love G's family. His parents are saints. They are so loving and caring. I love his brothers and my sisters in law. Leela loves her cousins but though it is great to see them and play, the constant procedure of everything is wearisome. I just want to do nothing when I want to do it.
I really can't do nothing where I am. Though I do excuse myself after injections and sit in my room, by then I'm done with the day. For the rest of the time I am followed by my little shadow who is such a darling and I love her, but she is constant. Also can't wander around without my bra on and in comfy clothes i'd wear at home cause my tits are that big and sore, it would just be wrong!
Oops, out of time! Gotta run to my ultrasound. Gee, I hope my follicles are growing. I'm hoping for 18mm. I guess my ME time is done and I didn't even make it to Kmart. Sigh...
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