Happy Valentines Day...

You have to know that something is up when the love of your life returns home smelling like perfume. Women's perfume.

Yesterday i was bored. So bored that i was almost comatose with the boringness of my situation. And even in my boredom, i lacked the will to get my ass up and do something about it. Just happy to sit and be bored. So bored i wanted to scream. Feeling so bored and irrelevant with nothing ahead of me to plan for, to do or even to say. I suppose i did apply a tiny degree of effort to trawl through job listings on the internet in the hope that i would find something to inspire me and make me want to do something. Anything... I've even got a small amount of work to do for a new client so it's not like i have absolutely nothing going on. But still... yawn!

I hate to use my darling daughter as an excuse but having her around is keeping me from wanting to do anything. I have to get her into a school and then i'll feel ready. Maybe i'll feel so mindlessly bored by then that i will have to be ready to do something. But wait i must because i still have not heard if she has a spot in her school yet. and i should not complain. She is lovely and easy and has a sunny personality and i love her and enjoy her company.

But then, I could go to the gym... though having my child there could prove disastrous. I need to go to a pilates class... But seeing as i've asked my mum to watch her today, i don't want to push the limits. I've got a morning tea tomorrow... But i have to take darling daughter so won't be exactly how i'd like it.

i have to get her into a school so i can just be. It has been almost 3 months now with her as my almost constant companion. I wouldn't trade our time together for the world, especially now cause i know she'll be my one and only. But please... just some unfettered time for me to do my own thing, with no worry or stress that i have palmed her off on another person. No guilt that i'm trying to get rid of her. Just knowing that she is happy, learning, playing at school would just do me and her a world of good.

Back to the perfume. I should have known better, but i think my brain has been dumbed by my boredom. Or so bored, i could have cared less. He walked in the door, late, as always. I had gotten a new air freshener and he asked what smelled so nice in the house. Then when he gave me a kiss, i could smell it. Perfume. I was pretty sure it was woman's perfume too but in this day and age, it's hard to know. So i asked him. And he had a very cheeky grin on his face. I pestered him a bit. Nothing but a cheeky grin, a look that i knew something was up, but something that was harmless, i decided not to worry and go back to bed.

This morning, Valentines day, he surprises me with a little bag of Chanel, contained within, a box of Coco Mademoiselle perfume. Which is exactly what he smelled like last night. After years of giving no thought or celebration to Valentines day, he picks the perfect day to surprise me. And so i feel a little less bored today. A little more ready to go do something. A little less content to sit on my bum and watch the world go by. Surprise is better than boredom any day.