I bloody feel like my life is on perpetual hold and uncertainty and I am over it!

I suppose I could see it as an opportunity to just fly by the seat of my pants and chill out and do very little but I am not that kind of person. I'm a planner and a doer. NOT a waiter ad a wonderer.

So another negative HPT at 4.45 am. I had a massive bowl of the best Chicken Pho for dinner and was busting by that time. I even used a branded stick to pee on. Still negative and as the days go by, it is looking more and more like we have flushed $20k down the toilet - literally.

I should not have tortured myself by starting POAS to early but now I can't stop. I think I'll go ignore the disappointment with a trip to Bangkok and let loose. I have to wait another week to find out about my darling daughter's school anyways so why the hell not!

Did manage to palm my child off for the morning and get my brows done. Later, I've promised her a mani and pedi so really, life is not bad. It's just all this blasted waiting!