Pre nesting nesting...

I'm pre nesting nesting and it's bad. I haven't even finished unpacking and there is crap everywhere! But i can't seem to help myself. Every room in my house just seems not quite right and i'm moving beds around and trying different things in the hopes that i'll feel a bit more at ease. Probably not the best thing to do, seeing as heavy lifting is supposed to be a no no, along with coffee and sex. But i've ignored all of this in line with my why stress it philosophy... And I doubt there is much that will settle me. Not until i get the results in anyways.

Waiting for next week to see if my darling daughter has gotten into her school of choice and i'm praying she does because she has not annoyed me so much as since we've been back. Probably cause i have things i think i need to do and she keeps interrupting. When on holidays, i really had nothing to do but hang out with her. But the poor thing maintains her cheerfulness, even under duress.

My quest to find a place for my blood test is proving interesting. Called a fertility clinic just in case i thought i'd do another cycle if this were negative. I tried to explain that i wanted someone who could do my final blood test, then if positive, deliver the baby or if negative, start me off on a new round of IVF. But they didn't quite get it and said to call back once i know it's a positive test.

The reason i want a blood test is so that i can know how high the HCG hormone is so that i know how viable it is. Peeing on a stick won't tell you that. And i don't want to wait for 3 weeks to get the results of my blood test cause seriously, that is how long it took last time! I have actually had positive tests 3 out of my 6 cycles but 2 were too low to amount to much and 1 was my precious child.

So after a bit of calling around, i've found an OB that can do the test but won't have the results until the next day. I suppose that is better than nothing and she is just up the road from me so it would be really convenient for me if it were positive. The other place i called was going to take 4 working days. Do they NOT see the significance of these tests!? Like the entire direction of my life depends on this test, and they just don't get it!

But anyways, no need to stress. I've booked an appointment for Friday the 10th because you can't just rock up and get a blood test. You have to consult with the doctor first.

I've been doing the numbers and even with the added cost of accommodation, we did end up saving SGD$6.5k on doing 2 cycles in Australia vs 2 here in Singapore (because the first one didn't involve any accommodation costs). This does not include my shopping ;)

If we need to do more cycles, it probably would not save us much to do it in Oz again, because of the accommodation issue. Also looked at Thailand which would cost about the same as doing it in Singapore, except that the clinic there is affiliated with Genea so might have the same protocols, cultures and all that.

Anyways, back to my pre nesting nesting. God, i pray that this is positive cycle and if it isn't that i can accept it and get on with life like we had planned.