Amendments are always possible...

That was the title of my blog post at the end of cycle 2, the one before the cycle we had Leela with. Before Leela we were ready to pack up and move to Singapore but instead decided at the last possible moment that we would try again. We were gifted with a beautiful child. A precious treasure for us to look after. If we had moved to Singapore that many years ago, things might have been different. We would have met different people, made different friends and also been childless. I love my life right now. I'm so glad it turned out the way it did. I have to remember that everything happens for a reason.

So now history is repeating. After deciding to go home to Singapore, we have decided, at the last possible moment that we are going to do another cycle. So late are we in making the decision that we've missed the chance to freeze G's junk for the next cycle. But that means he will have to make it back here for egg collection to make his "contribution".

We agreed we'd do at least 2 rounds before coming here. Glendon has convinced me that i would regret it if i didn't and stopped half way. I think he's right. I think i would, although i would have been perfectly fine going home on Wed, i might have thought back to this later and wondered what would happened if i had stayed.

So i'm here for another 3 weeks but i'll find a place for me and Leela to stay in peace and quiet. I feel so much better having made this decision for myself and i'm completely at peace with the "others!". I don't blame them at all. I know my previous posts were very pointedly blaming them. I was angry and hormonal and pissed off completely. But i can't really blame them. It's our crappy eggs and dodgy sperm's fault. It wouldn't be fair. I own my own life and i can do whatever i want to make myself happy.

It will be fine. I've booked myself into the Sheraton on the Park for a couple nights from when G leaves, then will find another place to stay after that for the rest of the cycle. Being the princess that i am, i can't wait to luxuriate in sateen sheets, room service and cable TV. Not having to do any cooking or cleaning will be a relief so i'm treating myself to this city stay for a couple nights and then getting down to business.

So now that it's decided, where has my damn period gone!