The weariness is back...

Dear me, the weariness is back... The cheerfulness is gone. Perhaps it's because i have returned to Hornsby in an effort to make amends with the family before the departure and while all is fine, it is extremely wearing having constant bicker, crying, whining and demands all around. I've only been here for 3 hours now and i'm ready to leave. My child seems like a silent, mute, cheerful child compared to these other ones. I must have expectations that are too high for children and my poor daughter is being forced to conform to my demands on children being polite, helpful and not winge. Being here makes me not want another child because what are the chances of having another sweet child like the one i have..

But i've decided to stay the night because my darling daughter only has another day to play with her cousins and I really would like to leave as happy families so if i need to suck it up for a little bit, i will. If we can maintain this fragile cocoon of niceties, all will be well, though i can see trouble brewing at times between the other members of the family. I try my best to avert any disasterous comments from either party. So, so, SO thankful that i have my own place at Chatswood that i can escape to if it all becomes way too much. It has made a world of difference, this whole week away from Hornsby.

Now I just want to go to bed. I'm missing friends and family in Singapore, especially cause i know all are back from holidays and having a great time over there living the life i should be living. I'm over traipsing around like a gypsy and i'm starting to feel my ovaries bulging up and getting fat and uncomfortable again. Good thing my city shopping spree included lots of stretchy, comfy clothes to get me through the next week.

Tonight i started the Cetrotide in addition to my Puregon injections. The shots didn't hurt, but now it itches like hell. I decided to inject the Cetrotide first cause the needle is fatter and more blunt so i thought if i did that one first, the second one would seem better. It had the desired effect.

I found a sweet spot on my belly where injections go in and i don't feel it much. Just a little to the right of my belly button, at the fattest bit. But the result is one big bruise in that one area. I can't help but poke it to see if it hurts and sometimes it does and sometimes it doesn't.

Still unresolved over whether i could do another cycle after this one. Maybe i will just hope and pray that this one works and i can be done. Will you please hope and pray for me too...