Tomorrow the calm and lovely place in Hornsby that I am living at while being hormonal is to be invaded for the next two weeks by the "others!".
Doesn't help that I'm 5 days away from the all telling blood test but I feel very not pregnant. And like my uterus is about to explode with the mother of all menstrual cycles.
I'm the selfish bitch who is really angry about this pending invasion and i can't seem to put it behind me! Especially because I'm thinking ahead to all the drugs, injections and everything that I'll have to go through on my own (but with the "others!" knocking about my house disturbing my R&R).
I've tried the following coping strategies.
1. Spending more time with the "others!" so I get used to them. Only allowed me find them more perculiar!
2. Offering to help cause if I put anger aside and help, I may no longer be angry. Only infuriated me more!
3. Bitch and moan to anyone who'll listen. Only makes me want to bitch about it more!
4. Staying the hell away from them. Only magnified their bizarre behavior when I did see them.
So here I am. Selfish bitch that I am. I don't think it will be THAT bad. I'll be able to laugh about it sooner or later. But right now I'm just going to be a selfish bitch and wallow in the unfairness of the situation for one more night. Tomorrow morning I'll wake up with only love in my heart and a helping hand cause I think that may be the only way I'll get through this.
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