Very much looking forward to my blood test and ultrasound tomorrow, just so that i can get more information and a better idea of when this ordeal will be over. Today is almost over and i just have to get through tomorrow because then G arrives the morning after and i won't be on my own anymore.
This part of the cycle is when everything hurts more, feels more frustrating and i swear i can feel those fat ovaries throbbing in me with a dull ache. I also spend alot of time wondering when egg collection will be and i'm afraid it will most likely be Tuesday, though i can never be 100% sure which is so irritating because any day is just not soon enough when my tits feel like they are on fire and my boobs are so big and sore that i don't really have a bra that is comfortable anymore. And then feeling tired, not wanting to do anything but not able to do nothing because there is a little person to entertain.
I have had a few opportunities present themselves that have added a bit of interest to these days. Someone told me that perhaps it's a sign to stay longer and keep trying so i can take advantage of these opportunities but i really don't think i have it in me at this stage. I just want to go home and be home with people nearby who can help if i just want to have a lie in bed and read a book.
But this cycle has been so much better than the last one. I still feel like crap but not as crappy as i remember feeling last cycle so i am grateful but i'm not sure if the degrees of feeling crap have any effect on the quality of those damned eggs.
So i'm hoping for an early night tonight so i feel nice and rested for tomorrow. And so i can actually make it through one more day on my own.
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