Nothing like a new baby to pull things all together and remind everyone what is important. Gran made it to QLD just in time to help deliver the baby at my lovely sister in law's home with the help of my just as lovely brother in law. It was a beautiful baby boy, the first in the family. I still find it amazing that it was born at home but then this family never fails to surprise me. Saw the new mum on skype and she was glowing and so happy i thought, yes, i could do it again.

And there is relief. The others are flying off first thing tomorrow morning leaving me to concentrate on myself and growing eggs in my ovaries in the hopes this cycle will actually work for me. There must be something wrong with me to feel such relief and cheerfulness at relatives leaving the country. But i am. I am relieved that the whole idiotic situation is done and we are all moving on with life.

Had to inject ice cold drugs into my belly tonight because i got home a bit late. Didn't hurt too badly but then it itched like crazy and has come up in a big red welt across my tummy. Again my child wanted to push the needle in but she had to settle, again, for swabbing my belly and pinching the fat as she giggled about it.

Tomorrow is my first ultrasound and i'll have to take my darling daughter with me. Can't wait for the questions to start. "Mummy, what is that lady putting up your wee wee"... "Mummy, what are those things on the screen"... "Mummy, does it hurt"... Good thing she finds it fascinating and isn't scared about it. The only thing that worries her is if it hurts me.

It's day 7 of this cycle and i'm hoping we are half way through now. Hasn't been so bad but there are times that i wish i were not all alone in this.