How have I been so lucky to have a child so filled with joy and love. She's an absolute star. She was as a blastocyst and is still now. Dunno how we could be so lucky again but I suppose stranger things have happened.

We've checked out of the Sheraton having thoroughly enjoyed our stay and wishing we could stay longer. Darling daughter even asked for one more night but we have an apartment in Chatswood waiting for us.

It's been such a lovely time, the two of us, indulging in retail therapy, afternoon teas and whatever else strikes our fancy.

I'm taking darling daughter to a breast ultrasound as I don't have anyone to help mind her but she seems to love all of the needles and tests. She was asking to see the next blood test and every night, she stands ready to inject me.

No longer hormonal in Hornsby, I am just hormonal. Two injections in and the effects are starting already.

Have to drop by Hornsby to pick up more stuff. My lovely hosts will not be there but the others might be. I sort of hope they aren't cause along with the hormonalness, the madness has begun and I neither want to see or speak to them. Poor people, having done nothing but be completely clueless, they bear the brunt of my irrational anger. I wonder who or what I could have been angry at if not for them. I wonder how these months would have been if things had not happened as they did. Trying to keep everything in check and being away from that house is such a blessing.

I have made the right decision and in enough time, I'll forget what has gone on and be ready to spend time with them again. I at least hope for that because I do so dearly love them even as I can't stand the sight of them right now.

Tomorrow morning is my first blood test so we are really doing this and hoping for what. I still am not sure what I'm hoping for even after all of this.